Coming Full Circle

Last Tuesday we found out I was pregnant!!!

When we first looked at the test it didn't seem real. We had to keep looking again. Yep, the line was still there! I have never before seen some of the expressions that flitted across Nate's face that night: incredulity, excitement, disbelief, panic. (Well, not really panic. But, yes, in a way, panic! This was really happening!)

Neither of us slept very well that night from all the excitement. Nathan immediately began singing songs and giving admonitions to my belly. He would periodically check to see how the "blob" was doing. And we couldn't help but tell people! Our miracle had happened! It worked! We did it! Hooray, Nate and Molly!!!! Now, we were three.

By Thursday, I was worried. I kept spotting, and not just a little. Nathan and I weren't quite sure how to handle it, and ended up on a roller coaster of high hopes and guarded expectations. All through the weekend, nothing changed. Then, on Monday, I started cramping around noon. By four, I knew I was in for it, but didn't want to take any ibuprofen just in case. I stayed at work too late, knowing I wouldn't be back for a few days, trying to get as much done as I could before it hurt too badly. But I misjudged how fast and how hard it would hit, and on the way home I had to pull over and call Nate, in tears, and he gallantly rushed to come pick me up and take me home.

He is unequivocally, hands-down, the most amazing, wonderful and steadfast man in the world, and I can not imagine a better partner and friend. We are a great team, he and I. I love you, babe.

Everyone at work is spectacular, I must say. I had to fight the urge to go back the next day and take care of things, but they all insisted I take the rest of the week off. Which, at the time, seemed excessive to me; but Nate wanted me to stay home, too, so I did. And I am SO glad I did. I can not recapture in words how precious and incredibly healing these few days have been, home alone, just Nathan and I. There is no safer place than when we are in each others' arms in our own private little space in the world.

So peaceful.

And knowing that I have the overwhelming support of not just my family, but every single person at work, too, makes me feel even safer.

What will Nate's face look like next time? We will be overjoyed, I know! And, perhaps, a little scared, too, but that is alright. If anything, this showed us how much we want to be parents, and how ready we are to step into this next chapter of our lives. It is hard to have to wait. But....trying is half the fun.... <wink!>

And then, early Wednesday morning, little Susanna was born in Michigan. What a miracle! We have come full circle in just one week.

So, I love you, little one. Whenever you come, and I can hardly wait to meet you.